Douglas, Penelope, 1977- Fall away series.

"This novel contains graphic sexual content and harsh language. It is only appropriate for adult readers age 18+." -- goodreads.com

"This explosively romantic series by the New York Times bestselling author of Bully is redefining what it means to fall in love, hard. It can come with quite a rush. This is Until You Have you ever been so angry that hitting things felt good? Or numb to all emotions? The past few years have been like that for me. Traveling between fury and indifference with no stops in between. Some people hate me for it, while others are scared of me. But none of them can hurt me, because I don't care about anything or anyone. Except Tatum. I love her so much that I hate her. I hate that I can't let her go. We used to be friends, but I found out that I couldn't trust her or anyone else. So I hurt her. I pushed her away. But I still need her. She centers me. Engaging, challenging, bullying her it's the last part of me that feels anything human. But then she went and screwed everything up. She left for a year and came back a different girl. Now, when I push, she pushes back. "--

Jared has spent the past few years traveling between fury and indifference with no stops in between. He doesn't care about anything or anyone-- except Tatum. They used to be friends, but he found out that he couldn't trust her-- or anyone else. So he pushed her away. But he still needs her, and pools all of his anger into her. Engaging her, challenging her, bullying her... they are Jared's food, his air, the last part of himself that feels anything human. Then Tatum left, and went to France for a year. She came back a different girl. Now, when Jared push, she pushes back