Cancer season -- Broken news -- Hurrycanes -- In sickness and in health -- Future exes -- Punchlines -- Sleep talking -- The last sunset -- Green -- Still life -- Ash and bone -- Coastlines -- La petite mort -- Some other beginning's end -- My bloody valentine -- First dates -- The tenderness of one-night stands -- Something casual -- Witches -- Sirens -- Everyone is a storm/April 2020 -- Bylines -- Birthdays

"A beautifully written "grief-and-relief" memoir tackling all the things we're too afraid to say about death, marriage, sex, and how the death of a husband can lead to a rebirth"--

"After years of struggling in a tumultuous marriage, writer Rebecca Woolf was finally ready to leave her husband. Two weeks after telling him she wanted a divorce, he was diagnosed with stage four pancreatic cancer. Four months later, at the age of forty-four, he died. In [this book], Woolf chronicles the months before her husband's death -- and her rebirth after he was gone. With rigorous honesty and incredible awareness, she reflects on the end of her marriage: how her husband's illness finally gave her the space to make peace with his humanity and her own. Stunning, compelling, and brilliantly nuanced, [this book] is one woman's story of embracing the complexities of grief without shame -- as a mother, a widow, and a sexual being -- and emerging on the other side of a relationship with gratitude and relief" -- Book jacket